Regan's Vegitable

Ketchup! Ketchup!

Ever since I was a little boy I have loved ketchup. My mother used to always say, "Would you like some fries with your ketchup?" When ever I'd visit my Aunt Judy & uncle John I would learn to bring my own catch up and before that go crazy wondering how any house hold could not have this essential ingredient in their Frigidaire.

I just bought a bottle yesterday and as I chomp down on my Cookies and Cream breakfast I look at the bottle on the table and its about empty! How could I have devoured a whole bottle in less than 48 hours. I can't be the only one who thinks ketchup is a must on burgers, dogs, fries, eggs, poor peoples spaghetti, poor peoples cheesy grits, and baked potatoes.

Is this a man thing?

Is this cultural?

Is this Ronald Regan's fault for making ketchup a vegetable and a necessity for school lunches in the 80's?

my heart is damaged, but don't blame the one before

this is the way it was raised to feel most comfort

but every time my heart gets to comfortably damaged

God sends a message!

Do you know what she says?

" I don't know why those girls from Danity Kane didn't just tell Puffy to fuck off and went to Jay-Z got a new name and kept on keepin on!"

and then she would say

"Ms, Shareef, it aint over till I say it's over Ms. Thang! I got plans for you

I GOT YOU BABE

Now dont cry Ms Shareef a change is comming and out of all this crazy unhealthy dead man walking in gay man self hatred non coping cause your out of stength and love for yourself and nobody else is telling you that they love you so if you haven't told yourself in months Ms. Thang than you dont need to wonder how you end up in these cycles of self lovelessness."

Yes I thought God was a bit more butch but her lipgloss was classic.

and just like that the computer just started playing music it just out of the blue played a gospel song with a House drum and base beat saying

"Lift your hands in Praise, your life is in my hands, a change is a comin"

a tear

lots of tears

next song

"He ate my heart, He ate my heart, He ate my heart, Madge 2.0?

Yes the new Madge Ga Ga

and my heart began to fill with streangth

and I turned to the mirror

"That boy is a monster..."

I thought thought that maybe I would blog/journal the truth about my daily life, the depression, the drugs, the sex, the high risk life where my thoughts are constantly thinking of my family my "wife" n "Kid" and if I dont medicate scold myself for not picking up the phone.

I thought that if I could be completely honest about my life to the world that I could start being honest with myself, but I think about the people "in" my life that would be affected by the way I live my life being published for their friends to see, and so I've been blocked.


But
A CHANGE IS A COMMIN!

There's a She Wolf in the closet
I'm letting her out so she can breath!